Today Mommy received a massage. While I was listening to the music, I saw both of you running and playing through a field of flowers. Sometimes Billy would chase Rosie and other times, Rosie was chasing Billy. At times, you would both run while holding hands while giggling. Mommy was so happy to see you and hear your giggles. While I will never hear you giggle on this earth, it was comforting to see you two playing and giggling with each other. Mommy and Daddy love you both so much and will one day hold you in our arms.
We talked to the doctor last week and he said that we have 8 brothers and sisters frozen. That means Billy and Rosie will be big a big brother and sister soon. Mommy and Daddy will make sure your siblings know all about you two and we expect you to watch over your siblings too. :)
Monday, April 23, 2012
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Our New Butterflies
Mommy and Daddy received our butterflies from Waterford. They are pink and blue and beautiful. They remind Mommy of both of you. Waterford will not sell any crystal unless it is perfect, just like you two. We think of you both everyday and now we have symbols for each of you to look at all the time.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
A Beautiful Poem
Mommy found this poem when I was looking for mementos of you. I had to change it so that it reflected both of you.
Don't weep at our grave, For we are not there
We've a date with a butterfly To dance in the air.
We'll be singing in the sunshine, Wild and free
Playing tag with the wind, While we're waiting for thee.
Don't weep at our grave, For we are not there
We've a date with a butterfly To dance in the air.
We'll be singing in the sunshine, Wild and free
Playing tag with the wind, While we're waiting for thee.
Easter
Mommy and Daddy came to visit you at the cemetery today. We took bunnies to you for your first Easter. There was a pink and a blue bunny in onesies with bunny feet and they said "My First Bunny". We also left Easter eggs on your grave. We didn't hide them so you two could find them easily. There were a lot of little babies out there with you that also had bunnies or eggs. Mommy and Daddy cried while we were with you. I know you are still with us, but Mommy gets so mad that we have to visit your grave instead of feeling you in my tummy. We would be getting ready for your big appearance next month, but instead we are visiting your grave. We miss you so much it hurts like nothing else has before. We love you both so much and know that you are in Heaven playing with the other babies. Mommy and Daddy want so bad to give you brothers and sisters. We will all go to visit you at the cemetery so you can get to know them and they can know you too.
Mommy and Daddy love you both.
Our Story of Billy and Rosie
You were implanted on Sept. 11, 2011. Your daddy and I were so excited to see you as little 6 celled embryos. 2 weeks later, we got the news that you had implanted and we were officially pregnant. At 6 weeks, we had our first ultrasound and found out there were not one, but two of you. We were so excited, we were going to have two. We had another ultrasound at 8 weeks and then 9 weeks. You both were growing so quickly and looked like gummy bears.
We started seeing your doctor at 10 weeks. At that appointment, we saw you again and heard your heartbeats for the first time. It was the greatest sound I had ever heard in my life. Your hearts were beating so fast, but we were told that is normal. Every 2 weeks, we went back and saw you guys on the big screen at the doctor's office. At 16 weeks, we learned your genders, a boy and girl. It was amazing. I cried everytime I heard your heartbeats. The nurses kept calling you baby A and baby B, so we decided to nickname you Abner and Bertha.
At 20 weeks, we discovered that Rosie was baby A and Billy was baby B. Your nicknames were changed to Agatha and Bernie. Mommy kept getting bigger and bigger, but we were so excited for both of you to come into our lives. Rosie was always active when we would check on you two. In fact, everytime we would try and look at Billy, we would see Rosie's hand or foot as she hit him. Billy was usually sleeping and we would have to wake him up. Once he woke up, he would flash his winkie at us which would make us laugh and reminded Mommy of Daddy. Rosie was always modest and it took time to see her girly parts.
On January 25, you made your appearances. Daddy and I went to the hospital at 4:30 a.m. because Mommy was having contractions. We were so scared because we were only 22 weeks along. By 9:00 a.m., the doctor told us that Mommy had an infection and it caused Billy's water to break and get infected. The doctor said that we had to deliver Billy and there was nothing they could do for him. Mommy and Daddy were heartbroken. The doctor said that he could save Rosie, but there was nothing he could do for Billy. Mommy and Daddy begged him to do something for Billy, but he said Billy was just too young and his lungs were not developed.
At 11:49 a.m., Billy was delivered. As the doctor was cutting his cord, Rosie's water broke and she came out at 11:51 a.m. You were both so beautiful and perfect. Billy looked just like Daddy. They had the same forehead and Billy had Daddy's chin and skin coloring. Rosie looked more like Mommy with the darker skin coloring and she didn't have an upper lip, just like Mommy. Rosie was also blue because of the die the doctor put in Mommy's tummy to make sure her membranes were ok.
Mommy and Daddy were devastated that we lost both of you. Your aunt believes that Rosie did not want to be without Billy so she decided to go with him. We think of you everyday and are sad that you are not with us physically. We know you are in Heaven with your great grandma and your grandpa because they are your namesakes.
We love you both so much and look forward to the day we can be together again.
We started seeing your doctor at 10 weeks. At that appointment, we saw you again and heard your heartbeats for the first time. It was the greatest sound I had ever heard in my life. Your hearts were beating so fast, but we were told that is normal. Every 2 weeks, we went back and saw you guys on the big screen at the doctor's office. At 16 weeks, we learned your genders, a boy and girl. It was amazing. I cried everytime I heard your heartbeats. The nurses kept calling you baby A and baby B, so we decided to nickname you Abner and Bertha.
At 20 weeks, we discovered that Rosie was baby A and Billy was baby B. Your nicknames were changed to Agatha and Bernie. Mommy kept getting bigger and bigger, but we were so excited for both of you to come into our lives. Rosie was always active when we would check on you two. In fact, everytime we would try and look at Billy, we would see Rosie's hand or foot as she hit him. Billy was usually sleeping and we would have to wake him up. Once he woke up, he would flash his winkie at us which would make us laugh and reminded Mommy of Daddy. Rosie was always modest and it took time to see her girly parts.
On January 25, you made your appearances. Daddy and I went to the hospital at 4:30 a.m. because Mommy was having contractions. We were so scared because we were only 22 weeks along. By 9:00 a.m., the doctor told us that Mommy had an infection and it caused Billy's water to break and get infected. The doctor said that we had to deliver Billy and there was nothing they could do for him. Mommy and Daddy were heartbroken. The doctor said that he could save Rosie, but there was nothing he could do for Billy. Mommy and Daddy begged him to do something for Billy, but he said Billy was just too young and his lungs were not developed.
At 11:49 a.m., Billy was delivered. As the doctor was cutting his cord, Rosie's water broke and she came out at 11:51 a.m. You were both so beautiful and perfect. Billy looked just like Daddy. They had the same forehead and Billy had Daddy's chin and skin coloring. Rosie looked more like Mommy with the darker skin coloring and she didn't have an upper lip, just like Mommy. Rosie was also blue because of the die the doctor put in Mommy's tummy to make sure her membranes were ok.
Mommy and Daddy were devastated that we lost both of you. Your aunt believes that Rosie did not want to be without Billy so she decided to go with him. We think of you everyday and are sad that you are not with us physically. We know you are in Heaven with your great grandma and your grandpa because they are your namesakes.
We love you both so much and look forward to the day we can be together again.
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